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  • What’s happening in Britain?

    Trying to get a balanced view from mainstream media was challenging.

    My “bad take” sensors were immediately on the alert when the words “far right” was just thrown around casually by the mainstream media. “Othering” the other side is a very fast and unfortunately, efficient way, of drowning out contrary narratives, so I quickly moved on from the mainstream media to other sources of media.

    Asking social media what is happening in Britain, especially on left leaning Mastodon, was probably not the mentally safest way to do so. I doubted that I’d get a nuanced view, and I knew I’d be exposing myself to some outrage for daring to even ask or have an opinion about the situation, but I really wanted to know what folks in Britain were thinking about the riots in the UK.

    I got interesting perspectives which helped me evaluate what the voices from the left leaning crowd were saying.

    Then I moved on to Youtube.

    I know, I know. This is not the best place ever lol.

    Oddly, or maybe not oddly, Youtube kept recommending me vitrolic, anti-immigrant rants. Huh.

    So, I gravitated towards long conversations between academicians rather than quick, dramatic outrage videos that are so de rigour among political pundits. I also try to get a more global perspective: Europe, Asia, Africa, for example.

    Some recommendations

    Here are some that I thought were a good listen, which offered a bit of nuance:

    “Everyone is far right all of a sudden … the average person who has no political affiliation, no extremist views just want to be heard. They can’t be heard because they’re being labelled as far right. … You’re not allowing people to actually have a conversation.”

    “The rest of the world knows England in a way that it doesn’t itself.”

    My thoughts: If you have time to only listen to one, watch this. One of the issues they talk about is how they highlight the fact that the higher classes are sniffing at the lower classes who often are hobbled by their poorer quality of education, which impacts their critical thinking skills. Frankly much of the ills of a country, and this includes Malaysia, is the growing divide between the upper and lower classes. The governing elites (and this includes media personnel), are often from the upper classes due to their better access to education and opportunities, but due to this disconnect, policies are often not made for the people of the lower classes, whom they have no connection or relations with.


    “Failing to give people a sense of purpose and direction … (the government) doesn’t seem to be interested in governing but just responding to events. In an economic crisis situation, the pressure cooker is becoming much greater. … It’s outside the normal pattern of usual summer riots that we fairly see regularly in Britain.”

    It’s kinda sad that people have to go through all this effort to understand what’s going on in the news.

    However, I do wonder if all my effort was necessary as that’s a lot of time spent contribute to an area outside my circle of competence.

  • Auditing my social media use and information consumption

    As I wrote in my previous newsletter, thanks to being caught up with Olympics drama, I had mental fatigue so bad that I couldn’t feel rested even doing all the right things. This was probably made worse by the fact that I had a tough 2 weeks at work where we were rushing for many things.

    The mental fatigue left me unable to do anything beyond just mindlessly watching Youtube recommendations, one after another, like a drugged zombie. I’ve not read a book to completion for months, which is really alarming for someone who used to read 3-4 books a week. I couldn’t even enjoy a Chinese drama without reaching for the phone.

    So, something has to change.

    I’m currently re-evaluating the way I work – at least, in regards to compulsive context switching – and how I’m consuming information via social media.

    Though when I think of it, compared to a lot of people, I’m a social media hermit. This is currently the social media I use:

    Social mediaActively updated?Toxic interactionsHow often do I accessSocial benefits
    InstagramOnly chat with a friend about cat videos.High
    Tik TokNone. No account.?
    FacebookOnly when I see a funny cat video and just reshare it to my feed.Low
    TwitterHighLow. (Just check for Chinese drama updates)?
    MastodonMediumMedium, share thoughts/blog/Substack?
    SubstackMediumMedium, share thoughts/blog/Substack?
    RedditHighHigh, moderator?
    Youtube❌ (barely comment, just watch videos)Highest, anxiety-provoking content?
    Whatsapp groupsVery lowLowHigh

    Thoughts

    • Youtube DEPRIORITISE while I barely interact on the platform, I tend to consume a lot of anxiety-provoking content that screams about some upcoming financial crisis or war. The social benefit I derive from it is very questionable – I don’t think I’m improving real-life social connections at all. And, on top of that, I’m slowly destroying my inner peace and provoking my inner cavewoman instincts to live. ☠️ The content is making me hate “the other”, whatever they may be – The West, the [insert group], those who like PARA over MOC in PKM (just j/k!).
    • Instagram MAINTAIN I’m only there to send cat videos with one friend, but I find the interaction socially enrichening enough to just hang around the DM section. Yes, we send each other cat videos and send quips about them to each other. Probably the most bonkers thing, but it’s very “us”. LOL.
    • Whatsapp groups PRIORITISE I feel that I’m ignoring the wrong social channel. I belong to a few friends’ groups and they are great groups, not the one that sends you good morning emojis that suck up your data or gossip endlessly about someone’s kids. I feel that I need to prioritise this more over the other channels.
    • Mastodon MAINTAIN but tweak what I post about. Although I resent the self-censorship, I feel that sharing my thoughts about politics or geopolitics is not beneficial for anybody. Or, perhaps, I need to make them unlisted or just for followers only so that I don’t attract toxic interactions. The good thing about Mastodon is that it has very robust filtering/security features that protect your mental health.
    • Edit: RedditDEPRIORITISE forgot about this lol. I wouldn’t be on this platform not if not for my moderator duties. I feel invested in keeping the subreddit free of toxicity, but this results in being exposed to a lot of toxicity. I’m not sure what to do about this except to limit my time on it to just specific hours, and maybe an hour before I’m about to hit the gym so that I can work out the anger/anxiety of resulting interaction.
    • Edit: Substack – MAINTAIN. Generally pretty happy with my use of it. I enjoy the interactions on each issue of the newsletter. I think of all social media platforms, Substack’s set up is one of the healthiest, or at least one of the easiest to maintain mental health. However, the introduction of Substack Notes can be problematic due to Twitter-like behaviours. I often see people “gossiping” about other people’s opinions on Notes. They would reshare someone’s newsletter only to say cutting things about them. I don’t think such behaviours should be encouraged. So, I tend to avoid Notes most of the time, and limit my time there. Substack has an ingenious system where I can share my comment underneath a newsletter as a Note, and I do that so that the newsletter gets shared to the ecosystem. I use Notes mostly to promote other opinions and newsletters.

    As for the rest of the social media platforms, I’ve long weaned off my addiction for them. I am so turned off by the conversations on them that I no longer bother to be bothered about them. 😉

  • The reason why you’re so tired at work: Context switching

    I love Cal Newport’s advice in general. For example, this video gave me an aha moment which made me realise why I’m so gosh darn mentally exhausted at the end of a work day.

    I was context switching all day, and having work chat on (for eg slack) beside me all the time was literally doing my brains in. (And that constant desire to look at my damn phone… I feel like I may have to exile my phone from the home office from now on.)

    But then, I feel like I couldn’t really apply his advice. Working in uninterrupted stretches of time is nigh impossible at some workplaces. For me to do so, I’d have to start work either much earlier than 9am or after 6pm, when everyone has clocked off.

    During intense periods of times, I often do that, which doesn’t do well for me because I’m often expected to be “on” until 6pm, which means I could easily work up to 12 hours as a result.

    Besides that, there’s also the way the project management software, Jira, is set up. I love Jira most of the time – it keeps teams accountable and helps us track our workload. Rather than an amorphous blob, my tasks are represented by tickets, and the project manager can easily see if someone is overloaded by seeing the number tickets someone is dealing with.

    However, due to the fact that work is broken down into so many tickets, and discussions around work can still take place outside those Jira tickets in disparate places such as chats, meetings and more, one can’t help but bounce from one context to another in a frantic blur.

    However, even Cal admits that his advice isn’t perfect, but “at least we know what’s the source of the problem so you can do something about it.” (Paraphrased).

    So I’m pondering on how I can be managing my Jira tickets better.

    I’m contemplating a few strategies (based on Cal’s advice). Say I have a task to update Product A’s documentation:

    • Work on the doc, shut off all comms channels for an hour. Update Jira tickets once completed. (Context-specific task focus)
    • Day-specific tasks. For eg, some days are full of meetings, which makes it challenging to get working on focus-specific tasks. So, to work on meeting-related work on that day only (such as writing reports) and have specific days to work on docs. (I know this is a luxury though, and most probably not possible).
    • Work on focus-specific, writing-heavy tasks in the morning, more Jira/update docs in the afternoon.

  • Weekend Tales #6: The Paris Olympics fried my brain

    Weekend Tales #6: The Paris Olympics fried my brain

    If there’s a range when it comes to social media endurance, I’m probably at the low, low end. Like, the weakling end.

    I have a natural tripwire; when my brain has had enough of the chaos and noise of social media, it just nopes out, and when it does, it nopes out hard whether I like it or not. During these periods, I worry about losing friendships because I become this intense digital hermit. Because these periods can last for weeks.

    However, for some reason, this week, my natural tripwire did not trip. I found myself totally entranced by the Paris Olympics, and not in a good way. Specifically, the ghastly opening ceremony that many Christians around the world regard as blasphemous.

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  • Learning Chinese vocabulary as a headless chicken

    Learning Chinese vocabulary as a headless chicken

    Not gonna lie, when I read Victoria’s Study Notepad: Language studies or Magda’s Mandarin Weekly, I feel like a total slacker.

    I have a vague-ish study plan somewhere in my noggin’, but there’s no way I can get organised enough to do pie charts, or count the number of hours I spend learning Chinese.

    For one, Excel makes my head explode and I am already dealing with spreadsheets at work, and don’t really want to do it after work, thank you.

    Yet, I totally understand the value of tracking stuff, so I’m glad that Tofu Learn at least has some stats thingy that I can keep track of.

    My main learning goal for Chinese is to read as soon as possible, so my language learning activities are geared towards that.

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  • I once tolerated Kuala Lumpur. Now, I love it

    I once tolerated Kuala Lumpur. Now, I love it

    I never drive to Kuala Lumpur. The car I bought in 2015 has only 41,000 km on it. That’s how much I dislike driving to “KL”, as we locals call it. I rather battle the heat and rain, being squished in public transport, than endure her infamous jams or unpredictable floods. (Yes, floods! If it rains around 5pm, most office workers would brace themselves for a flash flood in the city.)

    When I was a young student, I attended a college deep in the heart of Kuala Lumpur. The only way to get there was via the unpredictable, maybe once-an-hour trains from my town to a stop about 5km from the college.

    From that stop I’d have to take a “mini bus” to another bus stop where I’d take yet another bus to finally arrive at my college. A lot of times I’d have to stand on the steps of the bus as it whipped through town, with its doors open to let in the air in the stuffy, non-air conditioned bus.

    There was no light rail transit (LRT), no proper pedestrian paths, and the traffic was an utter nightmare.

    Back then, I was a slim bunny because I’d prefer to walk 2-3km to my train stop rather than take a bus to it. I was often there much faster than if I’d taken the bus. There’s nothing worse than sitting in a non-airconditioned bus breathing in exhaust fumes.

    My memories of KL then was of a hot, grimy, dusty city with barely any trees. I’d have to avoid being hit by cars and motorbikes as I walk on road side as there were no proper pedestrian paths. Frankly, I’m surprised that I didn’t end up with a deep loathing for public transportation and become a car junkie.

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  • A secret Pentagon campaign to spread vaccine disinformation has come to light

    So, Reuters broke this story recently: “Pentagon ran secret anti-vax campaign to undermine China during pandemic.”

    This couldn’t have come out a worst time. Whatever credibility the US government has, after its disastrous decisions and actions with Gaza, is lowered even further. If it’s even possible.

    Now, lawmakers in the Philippines are demanding for an investigation into these allegations and are saying that these allegations are “likely true”.

    And of course, China is mad about it.

    Pentagon is not helping matters by not denying that this clandestine operation happened.

    Apparently, it’s a bid to “counter ‘malign influence campaigns’ run by Beijing.”

    Well, okay, so what if a couple of Filipinos died because of this right? Are Filipino lives just consumables, ask this Global Times editorial?

    Though, I have to say it’d be much worse if Pentagon did deny it. Best to preserve whatever tiny bits of PR you have left.

    Lastly, a journalist reacts to the news, calling it “shameful”: A shameful American pandemic propaganda program.

    Glenn Greenwald, one of the better US journalists out there who dare to bash both the “left” and “right” of politics, also covered this issue:

    My thoughts

    First, I was so surprised that it was Reuters that broke the story. If anything, I expected a “China cooked up the virus in a lab” story.

    During the pandemic, Malaysia was fighting so hard to get vaccines. There was a lot of hoarding of vaccines in Western nations so we could only get scraps. If not for the generosity of AstraZeneca and China who donated vaccines to us, where would we be today?

    So, the news about this deliberate misinformation made my jaw drop. What a morally bankrupt, evil thing to do!

    But then again, these days, the US actions on the world stage has just dropped down to such a low that I’m no longer surprised they would do such a thing.

    What’s interesting is even in Malaysia we had “news” that Sinovac doesn’t work. There was a lot of sniffing about how AstraZeneca and Pfizer vaccines were better, and Sinovac shots are just inferior.

    However, instead of avoiding it, many Malaysians accepted it as less effective and took the vaccine with the belief that “it’s better than nothing”. We are very practical folks after all.

    Older Chinese folks preferred Sinovac because they believe it’ll help them visit China easier 😆. I know some folks who are more suspicious of the mRNA vaccines chose Sinovac as it uses a more “traditional” technology.

    I have journal entries about my experience during the COVID-19 pandemic (I’m still rebuidling it slowly from my Twitter archives):

  • The cold war in Chinese fandom spaces

    The cold war in Chinese fandom spaces

    ℹ️ I rewrote this newsletter several times. I want to be very careful not to make this an anti-West rant; the last thing I want is to make people feel bad about being born in a region; that’s not something we have any control over!

    Also, the reason why I pivoted my newsletter to talk about cultural issues is because I want to promote the positive things about Chinese culture. There’s so much content that ends up making you angry at a country or a region – I don’t want to be a part of that. I want to be a bridge builder, not a bridge basher.

    However, this is an issue that’s been nagging at me for years, and I want to get it off my chest. And I hope by doing so, you’d understand how careless, badly researched takes about a country can affect its citizens and her diaspora. There are forces in the world right now agitating for conflict rather than cooperation, and they are creeping into “light” spaces like fandoms too.


    So, recently, I wanted to share an article about To the Wonder, a Chinese drama selected for the 2024 Cannes, in a Chinese drama Reddit forum.

    I almost completed the post when I realised where the drama was set:

    The mini-series is an adaptation of the award-winning essay collection My Altay by Li Juan, a renowned Chinese essayist. Set in Northwest China’s Xinjiang’s pristine Altay region, the eight-episode series offers audiences a fresh narrative and sensory experience, blending light comedy with Li’s literary aesthetics to explore themes of nature reverence, self-discovery, and the simple yet resilient spirit of the northern Xinjiang herders. – To the Wonder selected CANNESERIES, marking the first Chinese language drama in longform competition

    Oh.

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  • The tricky art of learning Chinese characters

    The tricky art of learning Chinese characters

    I used to believe that my memory was so terrible that learning Chinese characters would be impossible for me.

    However, a few months ago I had to get a tech certification for work. I panicked. How was I supposed to remember all this information?

    I tried mind maps, which helped me get a distinction in A-Level Law, but it took too long and a lot of the data I’m trying to remember didn’t relate logically to each other.

    Then, I tried flashcards. It worked brilliantly. I took the tech exam and I passed and actually did well! I’m talking about a high distinction. Not bad for somebody with zero software engineering background.

    Now, my Brainscape flashcards are being used by some folks in my company. Not bad for a non-engineer.

    My attempt to earn the certification taught me that it was not my memory that was the problem, but my method of remembering.

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  • Substack round-up: Six newsletters from Asia

    Substack round-up: Six newsletters from Asia

    I tend to like reading quieter, less “popular” newsletters. While they may not have a girnomous number of subscribers, these writers’ words are worth reading. There are plenty of good stuff on Substack, but I want to do more to highlight writers from countries out of the Western sphere as they barely if rarely ever get top spots on the Substack charts.

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