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The Vigil at the Manor (Part 4/7)

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When Sunbirds built a nest in my balcony

This wonderful event happened at the end of last year. It was a wonderful thing to see life in action.
Dec 15, 2022
Little visitors to my balcony today. They have been visiting a lot, and now I am wondering if there’s a nest there 😆Dec 19, 2022
Bird nest building in progress!
Dec 25, 2022
Two little sunbirds have been going back and forth picking up stuff to build their nest…in my balcony. Their little chirps have been my companion the whole day. If i had a cat it would have had such fun. Real birbs!
Jan 02, 2023
When the cat realises that there are real birbs outside.The cat in the photo below is Kooky, the street cat I was fostering at that time. He is now happily in his forever home with my neighbour downstairs.

Jan 4, 2023
The sunbirds’ nest continues to grow. I even saw one sitting inside, like it is testing it! Amazing how their brains came equipped with blueprints for this architectural wonder made out of feathers, twigs and …rafia strings.
PS: Yes that was the cat trilling at the end.
Jan 14, 2023
The sunbird is in the house!
Context – the birds have been building a nest at my balcony for weeks. They are now living in it.Jan 16, 2023

Omg this is gosh darn cute! The sun #bird is just sitting in that little nest of hers, probably roosting over a wee egg.
I still remember the day they were inspecting the plant as a location for their nest!
Jan 25, 2023
I can watch this little sunbird all day. Does this mean there are little chicks in it already?
Some days I just see it sitting in there staring at me as I watch TV 😆
How time flies!
Jan 30, 2023
Finally managed to capture the moment mama sunbird feeds her chicks. If you squint hard enough, you should be able to see a little mouth pop up inside the nest.
Feb 1, 2023
Mum and dad sunbird is out all day these days to find food to feed these young ‘unsChildren can be so demanding, eh?
PS: Still cant believe this nest is right next to my living room and I have been at the very beginning watching the parents pick out the spot to build the nest until now, feeding their chicks!
Feb 6, 2023
The sunbird chicks are grown up! (There are two of them in the nest.) Before, I could not even see the 🐥, but now, you can see them sleeping in their little nest. One is clearly bigger than the other. Probably because it’s better at getting food from mom and dad.What names should I give them? :🤔 🐦

Feb 6, 2023
t would appear that childish tantrums are universal, even in the #bird kingdom 😆
Mum decided to hop into the nest & 🐥 wasn’t too happy about it.But omg aren’t they cuuuute together
Feb 8, 2023
The chicks are literally growing into their colours now. Before, they were a downy black and grey, now you can see splashes of yellow. Aww its like watching babies growing up
Feb 9, 2023
The Sunbird looks nice, fluffy and well-fed today. Not sure if this is the chick or mama, but she is gorgeous!Fyi if you have not been following my #BalconyNest story, a pair of sunbirds built a nest in my balcony, and there are now two chicks growing inside the nest.
The birds have gotten really nice and big. They look about ready to fly out of the nest.

Feb 11, 2023
Today, to my surprise the sunbird chicks were not in the nest in the morning! Like there was nobody inside. The birds are back now, with mum and dad occasionally visiting.I guess its time for them to fly out of the nest. Aww they have grown so much. Look at how fat and floofy this chick is!
Feb 12, 2023
Caught a video of the little sunbird chick flying from its nest to perch on my Brazilian Spinach. Happy to give you a little garden to test your wings, baby bird. Now be a nice #bird and poop on my spinach.
Feb 12, 2023
I was getting worried for baby sunbird because she just flew off and I didn’t see her the whole day
And then around 6pm she returns with mum and dad and she’s now chirping up a storm, probably telling them about her adventures.There was another chick though.
Wonder where it went.
Feb 19, 2023
I was thinking of walking to the nearest cafe to read blogs and journal but realize I have a perfectly good spot in my apartment to do that. If you have been following my BalconyNest posts, the nest is at the upper right corner of the pic, hanging from the plant.
I ❤ my apartment.
Feb 19, 2023
Now that the sunbirds are grown up, they leave around 7am to go on their bird adventures all day and return around 6pm for bed time.I had a good look at the nest today and was amused and quite impressed that it is made up of rafia string, twigs, dried leaves and…fur! What dog or cat contributed to this nest, I wonder?

Feb 19, 2023
The wee little sunbird chick returns to the nest for the night. Where you been all day, little bird?April 23, 2023
I just spotted two sunbirds fiddling with the old nest. They have been at it quite a bit! Are we going to see another batch of chicks??Are these the same pair? The babies? So excited.
Nov 17, 2023
Saw a little sunbird perch on the remnants of the nest again. I keep hoping for them to return, because I really loved watching the chicks grow up and fly out of the nest. 🙂 May I be blessed in the future!
2025 the sunbirds return! I start a new journal observing them.
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The vigil at the manor (Part 3/7)

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The Vigil at the Manor (Part 2/7)

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Confessions of a reluctant digital journaler

I lost my journal. It was a gift from a friend. It had beautiful, high-quality paper and a lovely pink cover with gold embossed design. And I just couldn’t find it one day, and don’t even remember where I misplaced it. It was probably during one of my staycations.
It is, probably, currently being read by some stranger, and am mortified by what the person is thinking about what I wrot. But fortunately, I didn’t write much in it. It was mostly daily ramblings about what I’m supposed to do at work. And my really bad doodles.
My most private thoughts are in my Obsidian vault.
I’ve mostly stopped writing in physical journals because I transitioned to digital journaling last year. I keep my digital journal in Obsidian, and so far, I’m really enjoying the process. I use Ryder Caroll’s rapid logging system, logging what I do/discover/observe/am thinking almost every day in “Daily Notes”.
For a while, I toyed with the idea of using Day One, a popular journal app, because it was more user friendly, but the idea of letting some company have access to my private thoughts made me nervous. And yeah, I need it in a format that was easy to port out, and text files are as portable as they come.
I’ve also gotten into the habit of storing some of my social media posts in my digital journal. I do have a huge number of thoughts that I compulsively blurt out into social media, so why not keep a record of them in my digital journal too? After Twitter’s meltdown last year, I realised my words could be held hostage or eliminated by these platforms without warning, so I need to make sure I keep them safely somehow.
(These days I try to write them in my Obsidian journal first. It prevents me from blurting out thoughts that shouldn’t be on social media! Like, controversial political rants, for example.)
Sometimes, I even include interesting quotes or even posts in my Daily Note.
I also love including photos in my Obsidian journal. It was such a bother when I had a physical journal because I had to print them out and paste them in later, and it was often too much work so I often don’t do it. With my Obsidian journal, it was super easy.
As a result, I am journaling more than ever before, and my journal is growing fatter by the day.
Personally, I prefer journaling by hand but digital journaling, I discovered was just more practical for me because I keep misplacing or losing my journals.
One time, I actually thought I lost a precious journal in the commute home in Adelaide. It was a precious journal because it contained my thoughts about building a life in Australia, and losing that journal left me sad for weeks.
Until I found it in my room. Huh. I’m sure how that happened, but I’m convinced that God took pity on me and placed it in my room, because I remember bringing said journal to the city so that I can write in it in a cafe at Central Market, and looking for it frantically after that trip, unable to find it.
And even if I do keep them safely at home, I tend to stash them in secret places so that people won’t find them and read them. But then, comically, I forget where where I stashed them.
Physical journals are also very difficult to transport with you. When I moved to Australia in 2012, I couldn’t bring my journals with me and stored them in what I hope is a safe place in my family home. But I constantly worried that they’ll be discovered and read.
My ability to lose journals and worrying that it’ll be found or read by people – familiar and unfamiliar – has kept me on edge for years. And while I have no illusions that digital journaling is any safer, at least I’ll have backups of them and won’t lose them completely.
I also seem to journal more now. In the past, because my journal is never around when I need to journal I end up not journaling much. However, my smartphone or laptop is often nearby and I quickly pen a sentence or two every day.
Although I prefer the tactile sensation of handwriting my journals, I have to reluctantly admit that I am journaling more and feeling more secure with my journals now that I’m doing it digitally.
To compensate and satisfy that side of me than hungers for physical notebooks, I still keep a thin notebook which I scribble my thoughts all day, but that one’s more of a jotter pad than a diary. When you look inside and read the entries, it’s a tornado of disjointed thoughts. Not pretty or coherent in any way.
I think for people like me with this tendency to lose things, digital journaling is just the way to go 😅😬
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The vigil at the Manor (Part 1/7)

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Racism, bias in entertainment

There was an interesting conversation on my Mastodon CDrama group yesterday. We are currently having a watch party of Mysterious Lotus Casebook, and Neon shared an interesting conversation thread about the racism in the wuxia drama. There was also this article, Ethnonationalism in Mysterious Lotus Casebook.
To be honest, my reaction was, “…what?”
I’ve actually read the article before, and my initial reaction was, I have no idea what to think of it. I mean, it’s an interesting theory and good on you that you’re thinking about racism of the Han people and all, but the claim that “these undercurrents promote CCP narratives of Han supremacy and justify the genocide, erasure, and forced assimilation of non-Han identities” makes me go … eh, where is your reference papers and sources thank you? And please don’t send me the US newspapers.
Anyway, I won’t go much into this, as I’ve expressed this multiple times on my blog about this thorny issue.

Oh look, I’m evil! I am glad that more people from the West are enjoying more Chinese entertainment these days, but judging from my brush ups with some of them on Reddit etc, it doesn’t seem that they’ve taken pains to learn more about the Chinese people beyond what is spouted in their media. Please visit China, talk to Chinese people and really get to know them before making these judgement calls. Eh, but nobody listens to me. (PS I’ve visited China about 3x, and lived with housemates from China. So I’ve had some exposure.)
I don’t want to go more into this as it tends to attract swarms of commenters lecturing me about the goodness of liberalism and democracy when I don’t really, honestly care. I’m glad you love them though. 👍
I’m also a little tired that I can’t escape this craziness when enjoying my CDramas. It’s so tiresome.
Anyway, the issue with Mysterious Lotus Casebook is that the baddies are these people from a wiped-out kingdom. They practice the darkest sorcery. I agree that at times it went over-the-top with the depiction of their evilness, but I never took it as the entire race is evil, but this faction that supports the revival of the long-dead kingdom is. The show actually mentioned one Nanying descendant who actually fought bandits to protect the people, for one. Simply put, there’s good and bad in any nation, and this nation was led by royalty that practiced dark sorcery.
Kinda like the Sith, ya know?
So, I did not take the article too seriously, though I agree that there’s a thread where strangers are viewed with distrust by China for a long time. (I mean after the Opium wars and the century of humilation, can you blame them?) But during the Tang dynasty, there were foreigners who served in the government.
The crux of this article is that I’d like to remind people that ethnonationalism and cringe-worthy depictions of foreign nations is not unique to Chinese entertainment.
I couldn’t forget that first episode of S**ting Stars where our lead male character, a popular Korean actor, went to Africa to offer aid, and he was, of course beloved by the unwashed African children for his generosity. There were mud huts, lack of technology – ya know, the usual “Africa is backwards and need charity” depiction we see on TV.

The Asians are coming! The Asians are coming! I was reading Campucino, a newsletter from a Cambodian who shares about the happenings in Cambodia. In her latest issue, she talked about eagerly watching The Creator because it depicted a famous Cambodian landmark. (The film was shot there.) Warning, some spoilers below:
Now, for the part which made me want to get up from my seat and leave the theatre, the part where a floating village was nuked mercilessly. It was a part that was filmed in Cambodia. This scene evoked a very strong emotion in me and I was angry because I saw this before, in a documentary in which the US bombed us with 2.7 million tons of ammunition between October 1965 and May 1975. Keeping my bias in check, I left the movie with this question: Why is it that Asians are often portrayed as either backward, evil, or both, which then gives the West a justification to treat us with blind inhumane violence?
– #64 Karma Police, CampuccinoYa know, my enthusiasm to watch this show has soured somewhat.
I suppose I can write an essay about how Hollywood depictions like are the subconscious, dying gasp of an empire bent on reinforcing and maintaining its hegemony by keeping down the brown people.
Or something.
But I won’t because it’s a film and I never take entertainment that seriously.
I still remember that scene on the first episode of 24. I was so excited that Kuala Lumpur’s Petronas twin towers appeared … only for the pan out to a run down shanty town where people were running around in pointed straw hats at the bottom of the KLCC twin towers.
I would like to assure that, while we may have some shanty towns, we don’t run around in straw hats. Also, there are literally no shanty towns around KLCC, unless you want to count the less shiny and skyscrapy Kampung Baru, in which the residents will be royally pissed if you paint them that way. This is how the area around KLCC looks like:

Photo by Filipe Freitas on Unsplash I guess what I’m saying is, this is more of a humanity problem than a specific-country problem. China has silly censorship pro-CCP stuff in their entertainment. Hollywood likes to depict us Asians as terrorists and living in shanty towns, and Africa still has muddy huts and need a handout.
We all need to do better.
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Thoughts on the Israel Palestine conflict
While I am aware of the conflict happening in Israel and Gaza now, I am largely silent about it on social media because I don’t want to attract the attention of toxic people to my space. Some of them don’t even mean to be toxic. Most are good people horrified by unnecessary suffering, whether they are on Palestine or Israel’s side.
The problem I have about the discourse around the Israel-Palestine conflict is that people feel like they need to take a side. Are you pro-Israel or pro-Palestine? My answer is always going to annoy them – I’m pro-peace. Being pro-peace feels like a cop out to these people.
I am tired of wars – everyone suffers. When will humanity evolve from killing each other to fixing the mess we’ve made of the world? To create prosperous trade among ourselves, to heal nature and fight diseases like cancer? Instead some of us have not left our tribal caves. It makes me sad.
I am also tired of participating in social media shouting matches like it is a football match. We’ve turned politics, real-life suffering and war into entertainment; we are the spectators in a coliseum, safe in our homes thousands of miles away from the battlezone, pointing our thumbs up or down at every turn of tragedy. I don’t want to be a part of this, it cheapens people’s suffering.
I see a lot of people commenting that the situation in Israel and Gaza is actually “very simple”, because one party has all the power, and one doesn’t. Not true at all. The Israel Palestine situation is really, really complex – power imbalance or not.
Both sides have done great wrongs to each other. Hamas doesn’t represent all of Palestine, so Hamas does not equal the people of Palestine. Israel’s government doesn’t represent all of Israelis. There are Israelis who oppose Netanyahu’s rule.
In my eyes, this conflict will never have a resolution because both sides are engaged in an “eye for an eye”. There can only be peace when forgiveness and love is made a priority by both sides, not “how many people can I kill?”
And seeing how bloodthirsty and narcissistic the leaders of both sides are … my hope is very small indeed.
Two books informed my view of the Israel Palestine situation. Blood Brothers and Son of Hamas. By reading these books, I realised that the simplistic view my Christian evangelical friends had of Israel was not accurate. The sanitizing of Hamas is incorrect too.


So, I do recommend that you read these books, straight from the people who lived there and experienced the horrors, to get perspective.
I’ve been following “alternative” media channels, and I was quite disappointed that some of them are often blindly on Palestine’s side without acknowledging that Hamas did terrible things during their attack on Israel, photographic evidence or not. I’m sure the 1000+ dead speaks for itself.
To me, Hamas killing people blunts their apparent fight for freedom or whatever. At the same time, I watch with disgust as Israel bombs innocent Palestinians, who probably didn’t know what the heck Hamas was planning and was just going about their lives until this terrible event happened.
Alternative or not, these media channels have the same habits as the Western mainstream media. They treat news like entertainment and sports. They crow when the “bad side” loses, cheer when the “good” side wins. They drum up emotions, usually anger and despair, for clicks. Watch them if you will, but just take the necessary information and don’t get sucked in by the emotional manipulation.
Frankly, I don’t know why people think the Israel-Palestine conflict is a black and white situation and choose to take sides, especially when they don’t know the history behind this conflict. I probably know more than the average Internet keyboard warrior, but even I do not dare to definitely say who is right or wrong.
I leave you with a quote from Elias Chacour and David Hazard, authors of Blood Brothers:
You who live in the United States, if you are pro-Israel, on behalf of the Palestinian children, I call unto you: Give further friendship to Israel. They need your friendship. But stop interpreting that friendship as an automatic antipathy against me, the Palestinian who is paying the bill for what others have done against my beloved Jewish brothers and sisters in the Holocaust and elsewhere.
And if you have been enlightened enough to take the side of the Palestinians—oh, bless your hearts—take our side, because for once you will be on the right side, right? But if taking our side would mean to become one-sided against my Jewish brothers and sisters, back up. We do not need such friendship. We need one more common friend. We do not need one more enemy . . . for God’s sake.
– From Blood BrothersYou can also watch Elias Chacour talk about his experience of the dark time called “the Nakba”.

